from shit to shit yeah/ so tired

HOly CRAP I'm so freaking tired right now. it was a pretty damn good way to start december though. for serious. the rest of this past week i'd been pretty down on account of my car being all broken and what not. it's like november had me feeling all the stress of the present and the past all in one short time: i was feeling really lonely and school's getting tough and no money and being in debt puts a lot of pressure on the psyche and pressure to lose weight all just weighing me down but then came the start of december and for some strange reason these past couple of days have been so beautiful to me and i'm not just talking about the weather which has been pretty freaking fabulous after the cold mornings pass but i don't being chilly since i get so hot all the time. it's nice to be able to cool off.

so thursday was a decent day, got some baking done in class( delicious soufflés, i'll talk about em in a bit) and practiced my cake decorating skills by making some ravens themed cakes. Dallas fan first but was feeling like working with some purple so ravens were a good choice to me. they were alright but i had plenty of fun working on em and didn't realy have any worries that day. December first came and i had a mind as clear as day. friday wasn't bad at all either. friday woke up about 10, went for a walk, went to class, and then charlie picked me up so we could just chill before we headed to work that night. played madden, ate some cauliflower curry and cilantro rice, tossed the football around definitely, and relaxed and listened to music until 830 when we got ready for work. *clocked in 8:50* we get to the warehouse and things were already a hot chaotic mess because bobby was freaking out because of his time concerns. we got thrown into the action and basically work our asses off melting chocolate and making hot cocoa. wait wait wait. that's it? chocolate and hot cocoa? I need to quit my bitching? alright how bout you melt chocolate and make hot chocolate for over 20,000 people. as if making wasn't bad enough already i loaded one truck of just the hot cocoa cambro's(insulated carriers) mostly by myself. my back is still stiff haha. anyways we bust our asses 9pm-330am. this is the time most people get off work at the latest but baby we were just getting started. 330 the other employees show up to help us finish loading the fruit for the job(which was a marathon btw) and then we roll out about 4am and Bobby(owner of the company) is flipping his wig and ready to pull the rest of his hair out because the whole caravan wasn't right behind him. Joel couldn't find the keys to one of the trucks and so bobby was about ready to cry. terrible but i understand cause that man is under so much stress. anyways we get to some huge lot by the national harbor to unload everything and set up. it's 4 am, i'm already tired and things are hectic and labor intensive. long story short it wasn't too bad at work after the bobby chaos passed. everything was smooth, laid back, and the wages were inceased that day. oh and there were so many hot females there. like i saw a white girl with a nicki minaj ass and my jaw dropped. so many attractive ladies. we get back to the warehouse and unload. we clocked out at *3:15 pm* worked 18 and a quarter hours. that's some quality working time right there

What really makes yesterday so amazing though was after work. a hot shower had me so refreshed and revitalized my body. literally the best shower I've had in my whole life so far. pardon my french but fucking fantastic. afterwards charlie and i went to denny's. we're waddling out of his car and barely making it to the door and to a booth hahaha. our waitress was so nice and on point and so chill and laid back that she made our day we had to make her day. charlie left her an amazing tip and i told her that she basically brightened and made our whole day. she loved it and it felt good knowing it did. we get back and are barely getting through one game of madden when charlie's falling asleep while the playclock keeps running haha. he took the mattress and i took the long couch and with the space heater on we were out in a heartbeat. best night of sleep in a while.

slept from like 9-9. we woke up, went for a ride, tossed the football around, and tried one last game of madden before he left to get his stuff done. got my ass whopped but no complaints here cause it was a good game. after he left i went straight to the kitchen. brought home two 20# boxes of apples from work so decided im gonna make some apple cider. it came out nicely after i made it mulled but the plain stuff was hanging pretty well by itself. so nice. victoria(vicki lol) came over to bake stuff(I did most of it haha) but it was chill. baked chocolate chip cookies and apple bread. after she left i started some homework and then boom here I am now writing this here little blog. not too shabby. forgot to mention i watched football today. yes i saw dallas lose in overtime because we missed a field goal. not mad though. and thanks to redzone i got lots of football action. so nice.

at this point im thinking im going to talk about the food later cause i've already written so much and the quicker im done i can go to bed. think im sleeping on the floor though cause i have all my clean clothes on there. half folded/half spread everywhere. the reason i brought up all that up was cause charlie mentioned a really good point. the brightest dawn comes after the darkest night. so much truth behind that statement. so to keep the philosophy going i'll leave you with my bit. Peace, love, and happiness, guys.

Though tomorrow isn't always a better day, as long as you just try a little harder to get out of the hole you're in then we'll be just fine